So far in this blog, I've talked about my health and given some baselines that I'm aware of. I have been specifically considering it in context of The Booth at Material Moon Refuge. PS, also low on iron, surprise. But let's face it, this is an esoteric service offering website and so I really should talk about some esoteric things.
I am nimble in nature, so I can go to and from and around again with some serious emotional dexterity. Today we turn left towards the secrets of the universe, and next week we may make a hard right back, or a soft 45° to fine tune the path. Who knows, we don't control the energy, we ride it.
I am so grateful for all the women and magic workers that have set all sorts of boundaries and made so much progress in creating safety in the world for magical women/people again. I'm not going to waste their efforts on my own journey to authentic expression. I am fully embracing my magic which helps me create my experience in a slow, structured manner. I love math and patterns and the stars. The wandering stars tell us so much about our personal and collective journeys, I would love to share more of this with you through my reading services. Readings are all in-person in Tofield, Alberta. It's just optimal for us to be together physically for you to gain the most benefit from the experience.
I've been playing in this world a long time. I hid it from so much and had so much doubt in myself through it through most of it. But when you surrender to what your intuition is telling you, you gain so much awareness and power. You realize the doubt is a mask the structures of society asked you to put on for their comfort and stagnancy.
Yes I legally changed my name and this has been part of my overall growth and expansion. Everyone wants to know, and while I don't think you need to know, I will share (but also suggest you sit with why you want to know what it was first vs full embracing what it is now). I was born Jacqueline, feminine of Jacques, the supplanter. Tigris is so much more fun and yes, I flow like a river - it's part of the nimbleness forementioned. I also resonate with supplantation - growth from deep within, as it took a serious amount of inner pressure to find, understand, and feel confident in defining my presence on documents with the kind of whimsy that I carry in the depth of my heart. It helps me carry the weight on my heart. The weight of the world, the weight of the systems and structures that are well rooted and trying to keep themselves upheld before we explode. Emotionally, that is. Can you see the emotional explosion that is coming in intersection with all of the physical explosions that are happening to our cousins and our aunties and uncles across the globe? Our divide is so rough and it starts within ourselves.
The health of humanity has been hidden in the hubris of those benefiting from the systems that we all navigate. Systems built on colonial infrastructure and spoiled relationship that specifically are set up to intermittently and in hierarchy benefit some ancestral lines more than others. We all hold the weight of a displaced lineage that is trying to root in on blood soaked soil while mostly pretending that isn't the case or isn't a big deal that it is true. Colonized land is blood soaked land and those of us from settler lineages are reaping the karma of the white supremacy that got us here in a way most of us don't want to admit. We are tied to the sins of our forefather's and we re responsible for addressing and healing it now *even if it isn't us in this incarnate that did something specific*.
Hello to the ultimate gaslighting and control of who we are nationally as a people. Once upon a time nations and nationality took such a priority that it erased culture without a thought. Simply upholding resources in a way that created a pleasure exchange for quiet through things like beer culture and sport infiltrated with rape culture. We're living the reality of the choices made when defining these systems even though we aren't the ones that made those choices. Many ancestral lines simply trying to survive, others getting caught in the greed that comes when policy is built around capitalistic interests vs the needs of the people. We also uphold those choices every day when we make the choice to ignore or deflect the fact that we are disconnected from our magic.
So, if you are prepared to actually dig into this shiznet, because you know it's the right thing to do for yourself, for your family, for your children, for your partner. Let's do that. We'll process the grief and face the truth, because it's through that darkness that we can find what we need to transform into expanded and open versions of ourself. How do we honor our ancestors by acknowledging and forgiving their misguidings, and how do we be good ancestors for those that are coming after us. I'll tell you right now, I'm not proud of the current trajectory we're leaving for our babies babies babies. But I know we have the opportunity to fine-tune direction so we can lead future generations to a better balance of energy and emotion across the globe. We are not just a nation. We are a culture, and we are the land. We need to do better by one another or the emotional explosions coming could do more damage than we have capacity to dismantle.
That was a whirlwind of word vomit. I am definitely more wild ADHD than I am the calm demeaner people want from me...and yet I am the calm safe space for you to cry in when you need. It's the joy of being all and nothing all at once in a loving and compassionate way.
Anyhoo. I'm doing more readings these days to hit me up. The booking system is pretty restricted, but you can definitely text me at 368-380-2240 to find another time. I'm just keeping the system on a leash so I don't accidently double book or overwhelm myself.
I hope to see you soon
xoxo
Tigris